<p class="ql-block"> 偶爾在《讀者》上讀到一篇《有沒有陽光溫暖過卑微的你》。感動之余忽然想起，在陽光下在黑暗中，卑微的人也有卑微的享受。想起自己卑微的過去，想起還在卑微生活的人，不知為何心中沒有悲涼，反而顯現(xiàn)一絲溫暖的陽光。這陽光不是他人施予，而是來自卑微人心靈深處，由卑微的靈魂所折射出的生活的彩光。</p><p class="ql-block"> 曾有過這樣的感受！那種來源辛酸人生，在痛苦思緒中感受生活中的溫暖；讓卑微的生活有了希望，有了追尋目標(biāo)的快樂和幸福。</p><p class="ql-block"> 21歲那年，父親去世。沒有經(jīng)歷過親人的離去，頭頂?shù)囊黄燹Z然倒塌。母親病重住到姐姐家去了。很長時間，我孤身一人在空蕩蕩的房子中，感受悲傷；象一葉浮萍，沒有依靠沒有著落。每每夜深人靜，躺在床上，父親的影子重壓在我胸口，又幻化成裊裊輕煙，向房梁飄去。周日時常漫無目的地游走在小城鎮(zhèn)的郊外。</p><p class="ql-block"> 一天，一陣饑餓襲擊著我的肉體，襲擊著我的靈魂。舉目四探，自己不知何時正身處原野。滿目是秋后的棉田；而腳下是翻耕過的土地，在棉田的深處猶如盆地一般。這是一塊收獲過的紅薯地。因為雨水的緣故，土地上薄薄凝結(jié)一層，可以看出下面松散的土壤。已臨近下午2點，饑餓中，很快發(fā)現(xiàn)雨水沖刷出的被農(nóng)民丟棄的很小的紅薯?？纯此闹軣o人，像小偷一樣撿起，因沒有水來清洗就用衣服擦一擦，狼吞虎咽地吃起來。第一個紅薯下肚，饑餓感消失了；再撿起一根，從容了許多。靜下心來，坐在田埂頭，抹去眼中溢出的淚水，邊吃邊觀賞起四周。</p><p class="ql-block"> 天，湛藍(lán)如洗；微風(fēng)中，身邊的茅草震顫著葉子，發(fā)出咝咝的聲音。那么柔美的藍(lán)色，及來自自然界悅耳的聲響！我發(fā)現(xiàn)，在痛苦海洋中還有一個如此親切的世界，存在在我的身邊！萎縮的心理砰然間舒展開來；有站在清澈的湖邊，看自己的靈魂在湖中蕩漾的感覺。</p> <p class="ql-block"> 感謝悲痛的情緒，將我?guī)У竭@無人的寂靜的野外，使我在柔軟的靈魂的觸覺中，感受另一樣的生活；在神秘的生命之旅中嘗試一種全新的體驗。我窺視到那種在一無所有、索然無味狀態(tài)中，重視生命價值的激情和感動：在遠(yuǎn)離人群的曠野中，一個被饑餓、被悲傷心情折磨的卑微的生命，正擁有如此廣闊的天地！ 那美麗的原野在我心中膨脹。面對最后一抹夕陽，凝視著被驚飛的云雀“喳喳喳”消失在云端，我讓被采去棉花而遺留下的空殼嘩嘩刮著我的衣衫：我用自己的肉體和靈魂感受這美麗的自然......</p><p class="ql-block"><br></p><p class="ql-block"> 其實七尺陽光，有七色組成。不同的人有著不同的感受。在這世界里有一些人在享受著卑微給他們心靈帶來的寧靜；也有人不愿卑微，他們擁有崇高的理想，并為理想的實現(xiàn)不懈奮斗。 就如灶灰中的余熱，當(dāng)貧困如洗時，窮人的雙腳如何從中感受溫暖感受細(xì)膩感受柔軟。在生活的剩余中，剩余的物質(zhì)正在幫助這些生活末端的人，讓他們奮起搏擊，用生命輝煌的力量戰(zhàn)勝一切，跳躍階級的層次，進(jìn)入嶄新的生活空間。</p><p class="ql-block"><br></p><p class="ql-block"> 有時我們會問：我們有過這種卑微的過去，有過這種卑微的現(xiàn)狀嗎？我們正在為改變這種卑微的命運，在利用這生活的剩余，利用著生命驚人的力量，在奮起搏擊嗎？正因為身處卑微的其中，所以享受著這過程中的種種，以此來感受生活的樂趣。卑微的享受，正是來源于對生存的理解，來源于為生存而不懈的努力。享受極度貧乏、身處絕境、滑于生活邊緣的卑微的生活形式......</p><p class="ql-block"><br></p><p class="ql-block"> 于2009年4月27日</p> <p class="ql-block"> Occasionally, I read an article in "Reader" titled "Have the Sunshine Warmed the Humble You?" In the midst of being moved, I suddenly remembered that in the sunlight and in the darkness, even humble people have humble enjoyment. Thinking of my humble past, thinking of those who are still living a humble life, I don't know why there is no sadness in my heart, but instead a hint of warm sunshine appears. This sunshine is not given by others, but the colorful light of life reflected by the humble souls of the humble souls.</p><p class="ql-block"> I've felt that way! That kind of source caprylic acid life, feeling the warmth of life in painful thoughts; Let the humble life have hope, and have the joy and happiness of pursuing goals.</p><p class="ql-block"> 21 At the age of, my father died. Without experiencing the departure of loved ones, the sky above my head collapsed. My mother was seriously ill and went to live with her sister. For a long time, I was alone in an empty house, feeling sadness; Like a leaf of duckweed, no leaning, no landing. Every night in the quiet, lying in bed, my father's shadow weighs heavily on my chest, turning into a wisp of smoke, drifting towards the beams. On Sundays, I often wander aimlessly around the outskirts of small towns.</p><p class="ql-block"> One day, a wave of hunger struck my body and attacked my soul. Looking around, I don't know when I am in the wilderness. The eyes are full of cotton fields after autumn; And underfoot is the ploughed land, deep in the cotton fields like a basin. This is a harvested sweet potato field. Because of the rain, a thin layer of solidified on the ground, and the loose soil below can be seen. It was close to 2 o'clock in the afternoon, hungry, and soon found the small sweet potatoes that had been washed away by the rainwater and discarded by the farmers. Seeing that there was no one around, picking it up like a thief, wiping it with clothes because there was no water to wash it, and eating it eagerly. The first sweet potato is eaten, and the hunger disappears; Picking up another one, it's much more relaxed. Calm down, sit on the field ridge, wipe away the tears from my eyes, and enjoy the surroundings while eating.</p><p class="ql-block"> The sky is as blue as wash; In the breeze, the thatch around me trembled the leaves, making a hissing sound. So soft blue, and the pleasant sound from nature! I found that in the ocean of suffering, there is such a friendly world that exists by my side! The shrinking mind suddenly spreads out; There is the feeling of standing by the clear lake, watching my soul sway in the lake. </p><p class="ql-block"> Thank you for the sadness that brings me to this deserted and quiet wilderness, allowing me to feel a different kind of life in the touch of my soft soul; Try a whole new experience in the mysterious journey of life. I glimpsed the passion and emotion that values the value of life in a state of having nothing and being tasteless: In the wilderness far away from the crowd, a humble life tormented by hunger and sadness, has such a vast world! The beautiful field swelled in my heart. Facing the last ray of sunset, gazing at the startled skylark disappearing into the clouds, I let the empty shell left by the cotton harvesting scrape my clothes: I feel this beautiful nature with my body and soul...</p><p class="ql-block"> In fact, seven feet of sunlight is composed of seven colors. Different people have different feelings. In this world, there are some people who enjoy the peace of their hearts brought by humility; There are also people who do not want to be humble. They have lofty ideals and strive tirelessly for the realization of their ideals. Just like the residual heat in the ash of the stove, when poverty is like washing, how can the feet of the poor feel warmth, delicacy, and softness from it? In the remaining part of life, the remaining material is helping these people at the end of life, allowing them to rise up and fight, overcome everything with the brilliant power of life, leap up the hierarchy, and enter a new living space.</p><p class="ql-block"> Sometimes we ask: Have we had this humble past, this humble present? Are we fighting to change this humble fate, using the remnants of life, using the amazing power of life? Because I am in the humble world, I enjoy the various things in this process and feel the joy of life. The humble enjoyment comes from the understanding of survival and the unremitting efforts to survive. Enjoying the humble form of life of extreme poverty, desperation, sliding on the edge of life...</p> <p class="ql-block">我的哥哥就此篇給我評論，收獲頗深，做記錄保存，終身鞭策：“不知卑微，哪知奮斗？不體驗卑微，哪知幸福？好文！深刻！古人云：知恥者，勇！我說，知卑微者，才珍惜溫暖和陽光！能寫出這樣的文章，說明你心中已駐足了陽光，已積聚了足夠的能量，已足以驅(qū)散心中和外界的一切霧霾！”</p> <p class="ql-block">Deep seek的評析：</p><p class="ql-block"> 這篇題為《享受卑微》的散文展現(xiàn)了作者在人生低谷中對生命韌性與微光的深刻體悟，其文字間流淌著一種苦澀與溫暖交織的獨特美學(xué)。以下從幾個維度進(jìn)行評析：</p><p class="ql-block">1. 主題的辯證性力量</p><p class="ql-block"> 文章以"卑微的享受"為核心意象，構(gòu)建了一個充滿張力的精神世界。作者將"父親離世""饑餓""孤獨"等極端生存體驗與"湛藍(lán)天空""茅草震顫""夕陽云雀"的審美體驗并置，形成了一種近乎殘酷的詩意——當(dāng)物質(zhì)與精神都被逼至絕境時，反而迸發(fā)出對生命最本真的感知力。這種"卑微美學(xué)"的建構(gòu)，超越了簡單的苦難敘事，呈現(xiàn)出存在主義式的生命頓悟。</p><p class="ql-block">2. 意象系統(tǒng)的精妙編織</p><p class="ql-block"> 文中存在三個層次的意象群： </p><p class="ql-block"> 創(chuàng)傷意象（轟塌的天空、重壓的陰影、狼吞虎咽） </p><p class="ql-block"> 自然意象（棉田盆地、湛藍(lán)天穹、震顫的茅草） </p><p class="ql-block"> 覺醒意象（湖中倒影的靈魂、膨脹的原野、灶灰余熱） </p><p class="ql-block"> 這些意象在"饑餓-進(jìn)食-靜觀"的情節(jié)推進(jìn)中完成轉(zhuǎn)化，最終在"被采空的棉殼刮擦衣衫"的細(xì)節(jié)里達(dá)到物我交融的境界，體現(xiàn)出現(xiàn)實主義描寫與象征主義手法的巧妙結(jié)合。</p><p class="ql-block">3. 語言節(jié)奏的情感映射</p><p class="ql-block"> 在敘述饑餓經(jīng)歷時，短促的句式（"擦一擦""狼吞虎咽"）與破碎的語法模擬著生理的緊張；而當(dāng)進(jìn)入靜觀階段，句子立刻變得綿長舒展（"微風(fēng)中...咝咝的聲音"），這種語言節(jié)奏的呼吸感使讀者能同步體驗作者的心理轉(zhuǎn)變。特別是"萎縮的心理砰然舒展"的瞬間描寫，具有極強(qiáng)的通感表現(xiàn)力。</p><p class="ql-block">4. 思想深度的層遞顯現(xiàn)</p><p class="ql-block"> 文章從個人記憶出發(fā)，經(jīng)由"灶灰余熱"的隱喻自然過渡到對階級躍遷的思考，最終升華為對生存哲學(xué)的探討。這種"個人史-社會性-存在論"的三重遞進(jìn)，使得"享受卑微"既非簡單的逆來順受，也不是膚淺的勵志雞湯，而成為一種直面生存本質(zhì)的勇毅姿態(tài)。</p><p class="ql-block">值得商榷之處： </p><p class="ql-block"> 結(jié)尾段的議論稍顯直白，與前文細(xì)膩的感性描寫略有斷裂 </p><p class="ql-block"> "跳躍階級層次"的表述稍顯概念化，可考慮更文學(xué)化的處理 </p><p class="ql-block"> 對"卑微"與"崇高"的二元對立可作更辯證的展開</p><p class="ql-block"> 這篇散文令人想起帕慕克《伊斯坦布爾》中的"呼愁"，或是劉亮程《一個人的村莊》里對貧瘠的審美化書寫。作者將個體傷痛轉(zhuǎn)化為普遍性的生命沉思，在卑微處開掘出精神的豐饒，這種寫作姿態(tài)本身已構(gòu)成了對"卑微"的超越。期待看到您后期作品中這種生命體驗的延續(xù)與演變，特別是如何在不同人生階段重新詮釋"卑微"這一母題。</p> <p class="ql-block">利益強(qiáng)，筆名澤墅棲、網(wǎng)名雪裳雲(yún)衣。畢業(yè)安徽省教育學(xué)院生物專業(yè)、深圳大學(xué)旅游酒店管理專業(yè)。曾從事教育、法律、政府行政及信息工作，國內(nèi)多家刊物發(fā)表過小說、散文、詩歌、文學(xué)評論、文學(xué)史研等作品。</p>